Please Read! Please Help save my Family! (Update3)

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UPDATE 1 

Hi again guys, 

Im here with some news, maybe small but at the very same time huge! I wanna thank you all SO much for the amazing support, I know the goal is far ahead but oh my world, we have reached over $2000!!! And even more actually because many people have donated directly to my paypal as well. Im just....  I never thought we would raise this much, not in my wildest dreams. And thats not all, so many people have written me, shared the fund, supported us with all their immense kindness, Im not one to cry, but since this fund got up Ive been all tears and emotions. Im grateful beyond words, my inbox is flooded with shared journals, with the most wonderful words of support, with people actually holding auctions of their works for our sake, and offering drawings, and commissions and adopts for donating the money to us! I really... this is just... I cant even wrap my head around it. How you can be so kind! 
And a day ago I saw my parents smile for the first time in... I cant even remember. You know those big, genuine smiles that reach the eyes. It was magical! And my mom was crying of happiness. To see them like this, with new strengh and hope, that is something so big and... just THANK YOU! Thank you all! I will never be able to thank you enough, not if I so kept thanking you for the rest of my life, this mean more that that, and I just dont know how I can express it, I wish I could send you my feelings. 

And this above is not all, because Im thrilled to tell you that we have got our electricity and water back. The house is warm again!!! We have water!!! Our phone and washing machine broke in the electricity failure but its ok, cause we have light and we can cook and use the bathroom. And we can pay for it. With your help we can pay the electrican with no worries! And our spirits have risen and all of us now start to believe we CAN get through this. There will be a better future waiting if we keep fighting. Its not over. And this is because of you, you wonderful people out there that have bounded togheter to help saving us. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart and soul! You are amazing, no, you are SO much MORE tha that, each and everyone of you. <3 


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UPDATE 2 

We have reached 50% of the first goal on the fund!!! Its.... once again Im just speachless! And not only that, because the people who donated directly to my paypal have raised around $2500 more, so the true total is around $5500!!!! If I knew how to properly express my happyness and gratitude to you all I would but I have no idea how, words are way to lacking for how BIG this is. Im just mind blown. And so are my sis and parents. We cant believe this. That you all want to help us like this. Its insane! In the most fantastic way. Thank you all SO much!!! I love you!

On the house front we have now started to repair the hallway (seen in pic in the fund). It take longer now cause my mom broke her ribs while we worked a few days ago, but she fight on. We also lost our electricity again a day ago but thankfully only for a while. Im gonna post pics in the fund of the hall when a little more is done so you can indeed see that it start to look better! <3 Once more, thank you all! This is possible because of you! 

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UPDATE 3

Hi guys,

Its been a while since I posted any updates about life. Its just so hard to do it. When things run smooth and the days are happy its super easy to post a "sunshine" story for all to see, but when things go bad its like this huge wall towering over you, holding you back. I guess its because somehow telling about the bad stuff is just that - bad. You shouldn´t do it, cause you shouldn´t put your missery upon others, thats not acceptable. I guess its how society molded us, "you fix your own problems good madame, don´t you dare putting them on someone else, if you do you are weak and a failure!". I don´t know if all of us feel like this? But I know I do. Thats why this is so hard. But I knew it would be when I decided to "come out" with the truth, and I was prepared to fight, and so I will, if I so have to expose everything I am. 

Since I last I wrote things have been going up and down, some day we have hope, thinking we CAN make it, others are pitch black, knowing its impossible. Theres still lots of fighting and stress and health problems, but there are also those good days, when everything is peaceful almost for entire days, and we NEVER had them before, so thats a wonderful improvement since we got help with the fund. <3 
We have started to take care of our attic, throwing out box after box after box with things dating back 3 generations before us. Its hard work and it take lots of time and efford but we have come pretty far (you can even walk in there now). This work is very necessary as the stuff in the attic have been so heavy, pressing down the floorboards and threatening to break the floor/ceiling to the first floor and fall down on us (more specifically, falling down on my parents bedroom). This is no longer a super big threat, and we have even managed to carry out so many things from the attic that we can now reach the window, wich mean we can repair that too and treat the mould. 

Some week ago we also had a set back that made me very sad. We had found a perfect home, and then I really mean PERFECT, so we went to the bank, and cause things have improoved we really believed that we now could get a loan, but they refused just as before. They took super stupid things into consideration, like counting on a interest rate of 7% even though todays rate is only at 2%! Also they said that we must have at least +190$ each month for fun, like eating out and going to the cinema etc. Why!? We never do this ever! We never spend money on anything other than the nessesary, all we want is a home, a place where my parents dont have to work themselves to death. Screw having money for stupid fun, only getting a new home would be the most fun in the world to us, and it would save us! But no, bank says no and there is nothing we can do about it. I got really sad to loose such a perfect home but what made me most sad is the fact that we never will be able to improove ourselves enough for the bank to say yes to a loan, so we are stuck here. And this scares me so much. Only way for us to get out is to fix everything ourselves, but how could we do that? People keep telling us it will work out, and I guess it will, for good or for bad one day we will all be dead and burried, thumbs-up for life being rather short. Haha. No but joke aside, we try or best to work on, next plan is to try sell the house while still living in it so that we can get money that way for a new place. I put my hopes in this.      

I also want to appologise. I have grown very distant as of late. Its like I cant cope with others anymore, any kind of interaction drain my strength. And I get so annoyed at myself, that I behave this way. Even the shortest compliment on one of my deviations make me want to "flee" - I can take days, even weeks to reply, and then all I really have to say is "thank you", but for me its like a towering wall thretening to cush me. Its SO silly and yet this is how it feel. I even struggle to upload my art because I have this feeling I dont want to be noticed. Yet, please dont get me wrong, I still am so insanely grateful to you that are here for me, who write and compliment my art, who support me - it mean more to me that I can ever tell. I just... suck at replying back atm. And I feel so very ashamed of it, cause I know I neglect so many people that I talked to before, and there are so many amazing artworks I want to compliment, I have piles and piles of them saved and more and more get added. Theres so many people I want to support, so much I want to fave and say, and yet I cant bring myself to do it. I really want you to know that Im so sorry for this. I have not forgotten you, I do not ignore you, please know I think of this and feel bad of it all the time. I hope I can get back on track one day and "pay you back" for this time of neglection. You are so wonderful people and I would never be here today if it wasnt for all of you. I hope you can forgive me for behaving this way.  
    
And last but not least, thank you all who help us and has helped us - with this fund, with your words, with sharing and spreading awareness of m familys situation, all of you who stick with us and make things a little brighter for us. I know Ive said it before but it truly mean the world to us and it has helped, it was complete hell before, now its more bearable. And for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul. <3 


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The dark spirit wolf Umbra is up for sale in my etsy store. She is a completely handmade, original, one of a kind creation that Ive put a lot of time, heart and soul into making. Please have a look at her if you want, she really want a new home. <3 Link to shop is in the deviations (below) description. 

   

 

Here I will post the links to the wonderful people that hold auctions and offer art for our sake. To you who do this for us, Im so touched, that you offer your art, your precious time, your skills, for US - its such a huge and wonderful thing! And that goes for all of you else as well, you who donate money, and your time to write and aaaah Im just so bad a this, I hope it come across just how happy and grateful I am even if I cant put my words and emotions together properly. I wish I could meet all of you irl and hug you, and tell you just how wonderful you are. THANK YOU!!!!


And if you cant bid or buy or donate, I highly reccommend that you still check these amazing artists galleries out. You wont regret it! <333
Also if Ive somehow forgotten to mention someone here, I appologise deeply, tell me and I will add you! 



Guys, all of you, thank you!!! Thank you for giving my family so much love, you are saving us, you truly are! 

Linda//Escaron